Healthful Thinking: doing the seemingly impossible


Don’t not do it simply because it seems impossible. Don’t resign yourself to failure just because the act of trying is hard.

I have more or less always assumed that I would never be lean because I love carbs and going out to eat too much; I figured that my life was infinitely different from anyone else’s, because I love pizza and bagels and pasta too much, so I’m probably physically incapable of ever getting “cut”.

Similarly, in the same, exact, solitary second that I became interested in the idea of doing a bikini competition, I decided that I could never do one. I immediately catalogued a list of reasons in my head why I couldn’t; I don’t know as much as some about putting on muscle, I lack self-control and discipline, and my love of pizza runs too deep to be even temporarily uprooted.

But if you really want something, take a closer look at what your reasons are for not just getting it. Achieving it. At the very least, reaching for it. Are they valid reasons, or excuses? Are they really, truly, insurmountable obstacles, or are they small hurdles? Is it really that you can’t do it, or is it more that you really just don’t feel like it?

Turn excuses into action. If you’re not doing what you want to do and reaching for the goals you set for yourself — what are you doing, really?!

So, here I am, trying to take my own advice and embarking ever on my first ever official “cut” and potentially prep for my first ever bikini competition! (I say potentially because I am moving soon and there are a lot of variables involved but as of right now my plan is to step on stage this October!) I’m not doing this because I hate my body or the way I look, but because I’m on a mission to be the healthiest, happiest me I can be, and to me that means challenging myself, setting goals, and striving towards them every day.

Because after all; is it actually impossible? Or are you just standing in your way with your mind already made up to fail?

All progress is good progress and any steps forward are good steps, however small.

I made up my mind to start eating and living healthier, and I knew the first step towards being a healthier human was to buy some groceries that weren’t pizza. It was very hard, but I did it.


Small choices can make all the difference. For instance, I opted for lower carb options, lower sodium soy sauce, greek yogurt for snackaroonies instead of cheez-its, ETC ETC. I’m a novice when it comes to eating healthy so I’m super excited to share this journey with y’all blogfam.

AND DON’T FORGET: healthy doesn’t necessarily have to mean boring or flavorless. I mean, check out these homemade salmon burgers Dillon and I made with a fresh slaw of fennel, dill, and lemon zest HOLY YUM. I don’t think the frozen ones I bought for my apartment will be quite as good but what can I say I’m a plebeian without a food processor at the moment until I move out in a few short weeks to start my next adventure. IMG_0317


What I’m currently taking for the #gainz

  • BSN Syntha-6 Edge whey protein in Peanut Butter Cookie — this stuff tastes amazing, especially with Silk Protein Nut Milk, which packs an extra 10g of protein per serving.
  • Scivation Xtend BCAAs in Tangerine. I’m pretty sure everyone on the planet earth knows at this point that Scivation BCAAs are #1, and after trying many different flavors, I am here to tell you that TANGERINE IS ABSOLUTELY THE BEST OKAY SERIOUSLY TRY THEM.
  • Scivation Quake 10.0 Pre-Workout in Watermelon Bubblegum. When I heard that I could get free BCAAs with the purchase of Quake 10.0 at GNC I was like okay sign me up take my money I just want free BCAAs. WELL LITTLE DID I KNOW that I would meet my pre-workout soulmate because I absolutely love Scivation’s new pre-workout. I’m very sensitive to pre-workouts and have always had a hard time finding a good pre-workout that gives me lasting energy without the jitters and crash. Not only does Quake not make me feel like I’m dying but it gives me a great pump and heaps of energy. In short, QUAKE IS BAE GO TRY.
  • Vitafusion Women’s complete multivitamin gummies because I love being a 22-year-old child and eating multivites in the form of gummies. These are delicious and it takes so much restraint not to eat all of them every morning.
  • Nature Made Fish Oil/Omega 3’s for that healthy heart emoji


  • Nature Made Super B-Complex for energy because I have always struggled with low energy
  • BulkSupplements CLA (Conjugated Linoleic Acid) which research suggests can promote fat loss


What my “cut” will consist of: 

  • Entering a caloric deficit, tracking my macros every day
  • Starting Macros:
    • Carbs: 138.4g
    • Protein: 122g
    • Fat: 42.7g
    • Cals: 1426
  • Incorporating more cardio, and HIIT 2-3x a week
  • Throwing in some ab work

Can’t forget those progress pics!

In order to keep myself accountable and document my progress, I’ll be checking in each week to (hopefully) show the changes in my physique! Here are the raw and unedited photos of my starting point. I am 5’2″ and currently weigh 124 lbs. This is who I’m up against:


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